oh yea

i think i wrote before that i don’t think i have a face that portrays trust.

it’s so unfortunate, for one thing, i treasure truth and i believe in people very easily. and in return, i give my trust out very easily.

but over the course of my life, i’ve been betrayed so many times, that i’ve become paranoid.

can u imagine now, hwo difficult it is to lead my life? i trust people to easily, but at the same time, i’m all paranoid…

i’ve been told, that perhaps i should ‘restrain’ myself more, than i won’t be paranoid. that is a better solution compared to choosing to be naive and continue trusting…

but it’s just so difficult, for it’s in my nature to believe in the goodness of people. if a salesman comes to me and tell me they have a good offer, i’ll grab it easily; though the offer is nothing to shout about.

if i’m to be that salesman, i’m sure i’ll do horribly bad; for i don’t have the look that says that i’m trustworthy. i am, but i don’t look like one.

and yes, it bugs me. it bugs me alot.
very close and rare few, see me with closed eyes, and able to see my heart, and these people, i’ve treasured alot, and i noe that they noe that i treasure them. coz we have been ups and downs, but we remain close. i really dunno what to do without them…

but with new friends, i’m dead. people talk to me at a platonic level. i don’t need such lips service…

what can i do? i’ll just drink my sorrow away…

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One Response to “oh yea”

  1. angel Says:

    but with new friends, i’m dead. people talk to me at a platonic level. i don’t need such lips service…

    lil’ botol, i don’t quite understand…ppl talk to u at platonic level = lip service?? means…?

    angel says, trust your instincts…

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