I do this alot of time

I’ve been hurt before, and it has become my nature to test people around me.

when it’s no longer

the companion that matters…

I’ve made ‘arrangement’ to watch Memoirs of a Geisha next week. It’s a movie that I wanted to watch right now. It has been quite some time, when I feel deserted by my friends, or at least people whom I thought are my friends. I wanted to watch it alone, but then again, I don’t want to bump into anyone.

I don’t care you know, if anyone sees me watching movie alone, for I’d done it before- many times- and people had gawked before- many times. But I simply can’t stand it when people ask and remarked it to my face: oh! you watching it alone? how come? never cio me along.

Yea right. Like for real.

I’ve cio you so many times but you are never free, got this lar, got that lar. Forget it.

Why? Cannot watch movie alone izit? You are watching movie, not chatting along in the cinema or anything like that. Cannot mer? Go die.

~~~

So I decided to ask a few people whether or not they want to watch and they said okay. I told them to book the tickets, and they did. Fine.

So the plan is that, we’ll be watching movie. But there’s a chance too, that they might back out. Fine; I’ll go and watch alone if that happens and I’ll bear the risk of bumping into someone I know.

Perhaps you might think, I’m a loser. Perhaps you might think, I’m not a likable person. I don’t know, and neither do I care so much. For I know, I had many good friends before, but they simply not around to watch movies with me. I miss them, and I know they miss me; we’ve told each other before. We have promised to meet up soon, and at least that I know, is a promise that will be kept.

so, right now, I’ll be watching Memoirs of a Geisha next week with some ‘friends’. We’ll be having dinner and chit chat and laugh and tease each other, but I know, as soon as the lights dim down in the cinema, I’ll be alone.

that’s how lonely I feel nowadays.

DYK: I like baileys on the rock.

more on 10 words meme

and more:

an american, who’s simple
T.Fairy
atul
let’s go jogging
southern western sun
apa itu niko?
inside a single guy’s head
d-e-z-p-h-a-i-r-e
the linguist
rambling life forward…
anurag bakhshi
educated, but unemployed
another beer fella
Sngl guy
ranting raving bitch
oh-lala emmie, the pair of thongs
meaningless crap
velvet verse
Elaine Chow
hantu
kura cat
val
Jo Anne
hoshi hoshi
on the walk…
april MAY june
the fish who can’t swim
echoo oo oo
pelfy chen(… again??!)
jolene

hope you all enjoyed reading them, as much I do. and wahhh!!! it has gone off malaysian soil wor! LOL

Me doing it? Are you crazy? It’s a tough meme! Wait till when I’m drunk, then I’ll try to attempt it okay?

DYK: The meme was created when I was drunk, and was emailed out. Thus, I don’t remember who are the very first few receipents

The original meme

This was the version 1.1 of the meme (some re-sentencing and some modification from ver1.0):

The golden rules:
1) write an entry of between 100-200 words, with these words have to be included once, and only once:

– I
– me
– blowjob
– grapes
– random
– power
– loneliness
– water
– robot
– blue

2) when you forward this meme, you can only change any 2 words out of the 10.
3) your essay must make some kind of sense. if it’s not cool, then it won’t get published…
4) meme cannot be sent back to the sender.

I call this meme: 10-WORDS-DETERMINED-ESSAY”

up to the challenge?

bottle

Apparently many of you are really up to the challenge wor. Damn good writing ler. You all went to blog school and graduated with Degree of BlogWritingExpert (1st class) ar?

OK… me going to tag. Dunno if these chatty ppl will write, but here goes:

1) Fat Fat Fat Fat
2) Maha Guru Sia
3) yap k.c.
4) painfully funny
5) c.c.c.c.c.p

10 words meme? i love ya stories

went to PPS just now and I discovered this by Liz.

As I track backwards, I discover even more and more!

Wahhhh! I thought no one did the meme, but apparently it has been moving about worrrr….. oh yea, I’m the s-hole who created the meme, and no… i’m not going to do my own mememememememe..

But I love you all. Choose one:
a) *Kiss*
b) *Hug*
c) *Hump*
d) All the above

Here’s the list of ppl who has done the meme. Those I didn’t list, sorry to miss you out lar. Email me lar, and I’ll add you in here, ok? Don’t cry, take 50cent and play far far…

Bryan sapien
a plate of rojaks
suanie the lovelie (thanks for passing it on)
Ah Pek, pek pek pek
Jeremy C, see what?
blazing angel
JoeC, see what? LOL
Hedonistics lamenting kyels
stress while fucking
orgasmic Paul
Kimberly-oh-so-cun
who-doesn’t-love Helen?
dabbing dab
itsy bitsy spider
lima kali mama
no-vowel Yvy
PPPPPLLLIIIINNNKKKKKKKKK
i’m Ran
tengok lalu…
CMOS chip
independent baby
KK farted put-putttttt….
erna mahyuni
shan, the polar bear ( the now famous 10 WORDS DETERMINED ESSAY??!!? wahhhhh!!! sure or not!?!? )
Iris
bawah bayu girl
doesn’t-care-much scorkes
battery-needed athenos
see- thru
star trek
pelf-ism ?
em jo
nude blogger
bulatan segi empat sama
guilty emily
sarung kaki
some kinda killer
i want a duck

okok… added a few more:

Mr. Tan Yee Wei
Mr. Tan Yee Hou
Guitar Girl
pretty comic
sing song
jalur sempit
S-Kay II

ok… lazy to go on liao.
tiring you know to drink and blog-find.

need to rest, my liver need to rest jugak.

till then. terima kasih. i enjoyed reading.

DYK: I no longer carry a condom in my wallet

hello?

MSN conversation:-

[tictactoe comes online]
me: hello

[silence]
me: hello?

[tictactoe goes offline]
[me goes into hotmail account and see tictactoe online]

damnit
what’s that asshole’s problem?
i dunno what i did or said to deserve being blocked.
seriously, i don’t know.

and it has happened in the past, and i’ve asked before.
and all i get is some ‘feel good’ response.

wtf!@!@!
wtf!^!^!^!
wtf!%$!%$

hey! i’m not ur future employer, so i don’t need all those sugar-coated shit. just tell me, and we’ll see how we can resolve this.

i noe i’m no saint, i’m no a pleaser, but i’m willing to discuss through wat went wrong.

i’m the kind of person who value and treasure friendship alot, so much so that no one can really imagine. so it really hurt me when i got to noe when i’m treated in some ways un-appreciated. i hate that, because i noe i won’t do this kinda things back.

i hate it.

i hate unanswered hello.

shit you.

i curse you.

DYK: I get chatty when I’m drunk

Chinese zodiac reading 2006

okay. here’s the thing.

comes new year, or chinese new year, you’ll see a hell lot of horoscope books in bookstores. you see ppl discussing it on radio and TV. you see it on the internet. Ppl will blog about it (proof me wrong…)

and most of the time, curiosity takes the better part of everyone, so will finally watch/ read/ listen/ so on. even some ppl who dun believe in such thing, still want to take a peek.

but really lar… why ar? why?

how true is it?

has anyone really provided sound scientific truth about all those stuff? has anyone look back, say for 5 years and check if everything’s accurate?

till someone can really show me something solid, i remain sceptical.

DYK: this year’s is NOT my Chinese Zodiac :p

hate me for this post

some times, your worst enemy is your best friend. and that’s bad.

i live my life, trying to make all things right. I’m not the kind of person who believe that it’s natural to have people who likes you, and people who hates you. I believe that everyone’s good in certain ways, and I want to see that.

I believe that some day, I’ll embrace my worst enemy and say, it will be fine one day. I’ll understand where you coming from, I’ll understand.

But right now, I fuckingly hate you, and I hate myself.

It’s just ain’t right, it just ain’t right. I’m going against all that I want to hold dear, it’s against all that I cherish.

I see bottles crashing down into pieces.

You are my enemy. I am an enemy of myself.

I hate you. I hate myself.

tonite is the last night; conversation again

I’ll be leaving for an exciting (hopefully lar) weekend; so tonite will be last night me getting drunk in KL. so must fast fast finish off the vodka.

now, let’s see… what to blog ar?

okok… a conversation piece:

bottle, “gayboy!”

gayboy, “yo… I saw your post. so you got gay tendency lar.”

“Fuck you!”

“Oh yeah baby! Do it to me”

“Shit you…”

“Oh@@… you want it don’t you…”

“Go fuck yourself”

“If I could, I would”

“Argghhhhh!”

“You coming?”

“I’m going if you stop all these shit talk.”

“Okay…”
“So tell me… how’s life?”

“Same old lar.”

“Been fucking lately?”

“Fuck you!”

“That would be nice”

“There you go again. Strike one”

“You serious?!”

Of course.”

“Okay okay… you want to remove your shirt?”

“Strike two”

“Asshole, I just ask you to remove your shirt lar. Fuck.”

“Ok, fine.”

“Remove liao”

“I’m shirtless at home”

“Good boy… Now remove your pants”

“Idiot!”

“Idiot calling others idiot….”

“What the hell you want me to remove my pants?!”

“You saw the Jay Leno show?”

There’s this Jay Leno show lar…where people will do all sorts for a free photo.

Me lazy to find and post the pic of the big eater….. GO google it out lar…

lost steam

This fella has apparently lost its steam. No more post from the whore, so I think that’s the end.

This fella however, has inspired me somewhat. Maybe I should go and buy a jogging shoes. Must start somewhere…

Anyone has any fast remedy to lose weight? Don’t tell me “have more sex”. I’ll scratch your car…

this

i read, and i wonder.

i don’t believe that anyone’s born a homo.

i think anyone’s born pure. circumstances made up who we are.

and why are some ppl are homo, some are straight?

i think it’s a matter of preference of wanted to be loved.

if a boy received a very special kinda feeling from another boy, somewhat expressed in a profound manner…. i would think that that boy will grow up with that experience in him, and he may incline towards homosexuality.

of course, society play a large role in shaping ppl.

if a girl find comfort alot in another girl, and she grows up loving that kinda comfort, she’ll most prob won’t learn to appreciate opposite sex especially if she has been through some bad experience with the male counterpart.

Now.
Let’s talk about me
and my ‘homo’ experience.

In the past, I shall confess…that I’ve been comforted by 2 guys.
I’ve not been keeping in contact with one of them, but the other is still around…

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve not had any wild sex on the beach with passionate lovemaking or anything with any guy…but let’s talk about FEELING

These 2 fella… I had very good comfort feelings whenever they call me, whenever they SMS me, whenever they tell me things will be alright when everything’s going wrong…

Somehow…

I felt cared, I felt I belonged.

Perhaps, I can’t differentiate the meaning of being a loved one and best friend. But let me tell you, it’s really nice… the feeling.

I don’t know.

Maybe, it’s when I was desperately lonely, when I was seeing nothing at all of tomorrow, when these 2 fella came about, at those times…

But those times have passed. I don’t see myself getting involved in any of those guys ok!?!? And I’m currently looking forward to say love to this girl…. If I can gather enough courage, one day, one day…

DYK: I carry a condom in my wallet

i’m addicted to this song

it’s official. i’m addicted to this song:

enjoy

DYK: I love gwen stefani…she’s da bomb

LDR doesn’t work. Deal with it (I)

I shall start off by defining Long-Distance Relationship (LDR) as I see it.
Both have to be separated, geographically for a long period of time, at least 3-4 months; every time they meet, this period is reset.

Simple.

LDR doesn’t work simply because in a relationship, you need to see, feel and touch each other. Yes, words can perhaps make you feel, imaginative ones can see, but to touch? No, you can’t feel the warmth- while touching the letter, on the computer screen- of the body while having sex, while heavypatting, while holding hands walking down the road on a cold autumn evening.

LDR makes you long for each other yes, and both can actually seek all those longing confort in OTHER PEOPLE… The temptation is great, very great. It’s very frustrating, agonizing.. when you are lonely and sad and your ‘other half’ is not around. But hey! they are other people around. How tempting, how tempting.

Sure, technology nowadays ‘bring us closer to each other’. We have IM, we have skype, we have all sorts… but still. It’s the same reason why people still write letters even though there’s email. It’s the same reason why people still meet up. It’s the same reason why some people still buy books even though it’s cheaper to have it in digital form.

LDR just won’t work. We are human. We long, and we can’t resist temptation. We make promises, yes, and we are capable of breaking them. We make mistakes.

LDR simply doesn’t work.

DYK: I have a pair of jeans for a year or so, which was washed only a few days ago…

crazy…

http://groggypot.blogspot.com/2006/01/wedding-dinner.html

what? crazy ar to give other things besides money in angpao at wedding dinner?

i’ll bitch-slap anyone who give me some ‘memorable’ photo as a wedding gift at my wedding dinner.

if you are invited to wedding dinner, please come prepared with red packet okay…

this is what i think the norm is:

you’ll get a call informing you about a wedding dinner. this will most likely at least a month for 2 or even 6 months ahead. this is when you say you’ll be able to attend or not. if you are able to, you’ll be ‘issued’ a wedding dnner invitation. at this instance, you are obliged to give ang pao liao. if you attend, you’ll give the ‘appropriate’ amount. if you back out at the last minute, you’ll still have to give angpao too, at 50% discount. this is simply because, a seat has been allocated to you.

if you can’t attend the dinner, or simply don’t want to, decline the invitation. then you’ll be invited to either 1) wedding lunch reception for christian wedding, or 2) morning session of the weidding, where the groom go and ‘fetch’ the bride. these sessions, you are not expected to give angpao, but a gift token is appreciated, be it photoframe, or jewellery or household item or simply… ang pao.

So yes, it’s essential, it’s mandatory, it’s compulsory, to bring $$ to Chinese wedding dinner. if you are vegetarian, back out, for meat will surely be served most of the time, unless you request for it, and if there are demand for vegetarian dishes, you might just end up sitting with the rest of the vege folks.

and your ang pao, you better write your name on it as well. if you don’t, the ushers will tag your angpao based on the guestbook that you pen right before you enter the banquet room…so don’t try to be stingy or funny with the amount you giving…

after you have ‘paid’ for your meal, you are most welcome to the dinner…. and YUUMMMMMMMM SEEEEENNNNNGGGGGGG!!!

girls look at other girls with envy

do guys look at other guys with envy?

I do.

I look at some guys and I sure feel like shouting yousonofabitch at that fella.

Yousonofabitch, your girlfriend is damn hot.

Yousonofabitch, you have the coolest car.

Yousonofabitch, you went for a great holiday.

And then, I despise them when they start to complain. Sometimes, the intention is to ‘downplay’ the ‘goodness’…

So that fella will say things like:

My girl’s got a lousy temper…

My car is more than 3 years old now…

I came back with a hole in my pocket…

And, what went through my mind is:

Yousonofabitch, your girlfriend is damn hot, and that’s why u still keeping her though she’s bad temper?

Yousonofabitch, you have the coolest car, and pls admit that, and all the car maintenance by your father… you have a damn cool car…

Yousonofabitch, you went for a great holiday, and you can afford it, and you had fun.

Bottom line, I envy the lucky guys; guys who are born rich, guys who are born with a pretty-face, guys who can sweet-talk…
And I despise guys who DON’T ADMIT or FAIL TO SEE how lucky they are.

Damnit.

DYK: I own 4 ties, which I rarely wear.