sometimes, i just wonder, am i leading a fucked up life.
I don’t quite like how it is right now, as I can’t see clearly my direction. I won’t say I’m lost, just simply unsure…. not clear.
I understand how the hype now is: dynamic and on transit. But it’s taking quite a bit of effort to getting use to that.
My work position, I can’t say for sure it’s stable.
Love life, well, nothing to talk about, except I’m deeply interested in getting together with this girl….. It’s difficult, VERY VEY difficult, so much that I’m willing to let go at any point of time; too many obstacles….
And I have all these debts to settle. Headache…
And my brudder is asking if I have $$ to spare…. More headache…
So what I can I say about my life? Quite a motherfucking fucked up shitty life.
As much as I hate it, I’m perversely getting myself into this kind of situation. Can’t help it, so what to do?
I’ll just drown myself in bottles of Carlsberg then…. This week, I’ve yet to fail to get myself drunk each night. Fuck me, fuck the world, fuck fuck fuck. Except beer though.
